Well hey there! I know it has been quite a while since I updated this blog and I am slightly annoyed at myself because of this. To save my time and yours I will cut to the chase; I was busy and life is crazy. I don’t even know where to begin with the last few months, so I guess I will start with what felt like the end.
As you may or may not know, my family and I moved to South Carolina to take care of my grandpa who had been struggling with the end stages of COPD. Essentially this past year was watching the strong and intelligent businessman I knew as my grandfather, fade away into a fragile and aging man slowly suffocating. I know that sounds morbid and that’s because it is. Unfortunately life isn’t all roses and sunshine and sometimes your patch is more like a rough field. I don’t mean to be a downer, but this year was more like a rough field. In the span of a month I lost my dad and my grandfather. A month before my grandfather passed away, my dad decided to leave my mom and I. He was in a car accident about 4 years ago and he has suffered with brain damage and alcoholism ever since. So technically I already lost the dad I knew 4 years ago, but the physical separation just finalized it. Loss really shows you who you are and what you can handle. Especially being alone after the loss. I wouldn’t trade this year for anything and I am so blessed that I got to spend the last year with my grandpa and creating memories I will never forget.
I have grown up and matured so much in a short period of time and I have really learned so much about who I am. Being alone forces you to get to know yourself and who you really are. I have spent the last couple weeks traveling and through experiencing new things and meeting new people, I have learned more about what I want in life. I took an 8 day cruise and spent a week in New York City. I was surrounded by so many positive and different people. And by different, I mean people I probably wouldn’t have ever thought about getting to know. I have become so open minded and I am so glad I met so many people from so many backgrounds. I absolutely fell in love with the City and experiencing the diversity of people and being around so much energy and hustle. I have actually started looking at schools there and I have really felt a strong connection with a school in Brooklyn. We are going back in 9 days and I can’t wait to document my city journey even further. Writing is my passion and what better place to find opportunity than in NYC?
I have changed quite a bit recently, which is why I reinvented this blog and have focused in on my goals. This blog is all about girls with goals and ambition. Girl power is by far the strongest form of energy out there. Women are so strong and I don’t think it is engrained in girls’ mind enough that they don’t need to depend on men or relationships for happiness, validation, or comfort. This year taught me that you have to focus on getting to know yourself, creating your own success, and honing in on your ambition before you can focus on anyone else. Looking back at my old posts I can already see how much I’ve changed. I’m so much happier with life and who I am and I can’t to see the woman I grow into (and I can’t wait for you to see either!)