It has been a little while old friend… Miss Blonde & Determined herself has been quite the traveler lately and I haven’t seemed to have that much time to sit back and breathe. Until now! I feel the need to give you a quick update on life since I have been slightly MIA. As of a few weeks ago, my mom and I were planning on moving back to Florida. We went as far as to pack up a good bit of our belongings and send them back. Well for various reasons, we have decided that moving back is not in our best interest and it was an impulsive/escapist reaction to recent events. I am hopeful that our life here will only get better and I already see a happier chapter beginning.
My mom and I recently went to NYC for a few days to look at schools I was interested in and just get away for a little while. I have to be completely honest with you guys; I love New York, but after awhile it gets to be extremely overwhelming. I am not sure how realistic it would be for me to actually live there day-to-day. I also had the opportunity to speak to quite a few residents of the City and they seemed to feel caught up in a wheel of never-ending craziness. I don’t know what the future holds, but I do know that I think I would miss the southern hospitality and fresh air that South Carolina offers a little too much.
My mom and I had a blast however and we explored, shopped, and ate at some pretty neat places. We’ve had a rough few months and traveling and trying to escape reality has been the only way to make life, well, livable. Losing my grandpa has been so incredibly hard and pretty unbearable some days. I miss him so much and I would give all the money in the world to have him with us. Apart of me feels guilty for wanting to get away and adventure, but I decided to embrace that rather than wallow in a pool of depression. I also know that he is smiling down on us and is proud for me for embracing life and visiting different places and schools that we talked about. Grief is a weird thing and I think everyone has their own way of getting through it. The waves come and go and I never know what I will feel next, but I’m just taking life one step at a time.